I didn’t want to wake up. I was having a much better time sleeping. And that’s really sad. It was almost like a reverse nightmare, like when you wake up from a nightmare you’re so relieved. I woke up into a nightmare.I can’t eat and I can’t sleep. I’m not doing well in terms of being a functional human.I waste at least an hour every day lying in bed. Then I waste time pacing. I waste time thinking. I waste time being quiet and not saying anything because I’m afraid I’ll stutter.My heart kept shattering into ever-finer bits every day .Some moments of pure bliss filled with laughter that echoed throughout the night as time flew from our grasps.Others of darkness that seemed to go on endlessly, turning miliseconds into an eternity.A constant reminder that I still existed
It’ll be hard.
But I am strong…..

– Aarna Chopra